Is there times when we tend to forget abt God? is only when u face troubles then u go in search of Him? or maybe even not...
i had been pondering myself with ques like..."Do i love God enuf?"..."enuf to b able to sacrifice my life for Him? like those ppl in e Bible ?"..i guess i dun hav an ans now...but wheneva i start to ponder this, God always speaks to me abt how tis ppl (not in e bible) who trust God n sacrifice their life...even to e time when they're at e gates of hades they still wana serve Him...really touch me...i wana do sth for God..i reali wan to but i duno if i've e courage to do so...but Joshua 1:9 always come out..haha...i guess i can onli trust God...i felt i hav been letting God down...i find it hard to forgive myself..coz to disappoint God again n again n i con't to sin so much...i noe God will forgive but i guess e problem lies wit me..but i need God's love to do so...sometime i'm trying real hard to find God but i dun..i guess it might b my heart tt stops me...i reali need u God..rite now...i'm so weary...pls carry me in ur arms...
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i just wana kick her butt n let her fly into e sky n ~wee to anywhere she wan... she is simply insane!!!! she nv treat us like ppl, rather she treat us like slave!!! well... on mon she was alrite..but ystd..omg!!!!!!!! i was ask to shred some past years doc. n a shredder canot hav stapler bullets gg thru it...so i try to take off..but she insisted...n she scold me stupid...hello old lady...u canot judge how smart a person....well u aint e smartest here either... n she said, "i pay ur agency n i pay u r very different..u agency wana earn...dun waste my money!"..u dun own e company... pls dun say 'I' pay u...is e company tt pays me..well if e teeth of e shredder came off..i guess she'll push to me...she does tt..not to me..but to others abt some other stuff..well i not dumb...i'll say tt it was her who taught n demo to me..n is true..but when she's away i tear off e stapler corner...well u tink u r e smartest here? n ask me not to shred too much at one go..or it'll overheat n e whole company will curse n swear at me...trying to show how good u r at? well..tt's not e worse part...today!!! arghhh!!! i juz wana kick her butt!! she said tt i shred very slowly.. n complaint tt e shredding machine is also very slow too..so she ask me to tear!!! u noe how much is tt? there're boxes!! mind u boxes!!!! thank God i've got no blister or i'll sue u...my thumbs hurts so much...ouch...i hid 2 boxes...i'll do it slowly...bit by bit everyday..my 'last' stack i wanted to shred but she say dun wan.. n she ask y...so i say my thumbs hurts..n she dint scold n offer to tear...well after a small stack she called, "wendy" to help...coz her hands hurts..i dint complaint n yet a little she mux ask others to help...so she noes how painful it is..she ask me use scissors..n she demo...she cut a little at e top n tear..isn't it e same? tearing it str8 away isn't it faster? n she said c 1/2 hr can finish...hello 3 ppl tearing of coz is faster..i'm doing all by myself...not tt anyone doesn't help...coz if they help i'll get scolded so they dint..she makes everyone so fed up today...u tink i'm so free? i got tings undone...well tt 2 boxes haha..onli she doesn't noes abt it...haha...oh.. she ask me y i nv write date? pls take initiative la...hello!!! i dun sign it how do i noe wad date to write? SO LAME!!! so pissed off!!!
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gosh..so many things coming up!!
27/11-Healing service
1-3/12-Youth camp!!! hurray!!! wana come? everyone r welcum..jux tagged on my blog
14/12-ivy's chalet!!!
20/12-CCIS..rehearsing!! muz watch...@ ps at 8 pm
23/12-Our drama performance at coos 3pm
24/12-Christmas celebration
25-30/12-Hong Kong trip!! so excited!!
31/12-Graduation for P6 to youth...got scripts to write..
All e best to me!!
in search for You